i sometimes like to look at old blog posts like old journals to see the things i was thinking/feeling and reflect, and back in 2014 i thanked isaac and holland for helping me figure out what song was stuck in my head (i remember that too, i was in the caf and i saw them and hummed it to them because it was bugging me that i couldn't figure out what song it was and they helped me figure out that it was jeff pianki. ha!) but they weren't even dating then and here we are, august 2017 and they're engaged. i want to cry, that's so beautiful to me!
if i'm honest, sometimes it's hard to look at my old blog posts because i miss some of those days/seasons of life so much. i also sometimes think i was a cooler, wiser person back then with a sweeter heart. i hope that's not the case. i hope i'm not cold and cynical and hard now. i don't think i am, maybe i just don't tie harder thoughts up with a nice bow anymore.
it's crazy to me that i'm still figuring out what living life is. not that i thought i'd have it down by now, but maybe i thought i would've.
is anyone else a major nighttime feeler? what i mean by that is, you get extra sentimental and aware of existence and you need sleeping at last and a night drive with the windows down and you just feel everything deeply? just wondering. ha.