i've been ruminating on a series of thoughts that sparked in my head after my poetry class last night (right?! i'm in poetry class!!) my professor was talking about how people tend to live their lives getting through each thing.. like, "i'm in this class so i can fulfill my generals, so i can be ready for my degree, so i can be ready for a job, so i can be prepared to get married, so i can support a family, so i can save for retirement," and before we know it, our life is gone and it was spent looking forward to the next thing. we forget to notice, to pause, to enjoy. me too!
and so today, while i was walking up the hill by myself after class, i just decided that that's how i want to live my life: seeking out and noticing every good thing, every gift, even every struggle, every awkward interaction (there are multiple of mine every day), every single part of this human experience.
like walking up the hill slowly, eating popcorn i got for free from my kind ole friend steve who works in the green bean.
like wearing the plaid shirt i "borrowed" from my sister without ever really intending to give it back.
like learning about functionalism in my cognitive psychology class.
like practicing my sign language in the morning with gracious classmates who are patient with me when i forget how to sign half of the words.
like holland wafting her coffee smells over to me.
like getting caught in the pouring rain running to my car last night after spending sweet time with a dear friend.
like revelations in poetry class or being called lex or being hugged by coral or thinking about fall or being single or knowing my friend sarah's voice so well or watching syd go get her "pet pheasant," irene, or going with cory to get his planner or even my stupid dying cactuses or sometimes even feeling sad, too.
there's some kind of wonder in it all. maybe it's because i'm a senior that i'm taking everything in so much, but it's really been changing me. and one day, i won't be wearing this shirt that was once my sister's and i won't be walking up the hill from class and maybe i won't be single and i won't live a floor away from sarah. and on that day, i'll make a new list. but for right now, i want to enjoy! enjoy people and enjoy God and cherish everything right where i am.
life is fun! hard, too. messy, and broken, and sinful. but there is good in it and seems there is always some kind of joy sprinkled everywhere when you're walking with the Lord.
and so today, while i was walking up the hill by myself after class, i just decided that that's how i want to live my life: seeking out and noticing every good thing, every gift, even every struggle, every awkward interaction (there are multiple of mine every day), every single part of this human experience.
like walking up the hill slowly, eating popcorn i got for free from my kind ole friend steve who works in the green bean.
like wearing the plaid shirt i "borrowed" from my sister without ever really intending to give it back.
like learning about functionalism in my cognitive psychology class.
like practicing my sign language in the morning with gracious classmates who are patient with me when i forget how to sign half of the words.
like holland wafting her coffee smells over to me.
like getting caught in the pouring rain running to my car last night after spending sweet time with a dear friend.
like revelations in poetry class or being called lex or being hugged by coral or thinking about fall or being single or knowing my friend sarah's voice so well or watching syd go get her "pet pheasant," irene, or going with cory to get his planner or even my stupid dying cactuses or sometimes even feeling sad, too.
there's some kind of wonder in it all. maybe it's because i'm a senior that i'm taking everything in so much, but it's really been changing me. and one day, i won't be wearing this shirt that was once my sister's and i won't be walking up the hill from class and maybe i won't be single and i won't live a floor away from sarah. and on that day, i'll make a new list. but for right now, i want to enjoy! enjoy people and enjoy God and cherish everything right where i am.
life is fun! hard, too. messy, and broken, and sinful. but there is good in it and seems there is always some kind of joy sprinkled everywhere when you're walking with the Lord.
