hey!  i've quite missed this lil ole blog of mine!  lately i've either felt uninspired to write or just doing stuff and run out of time.  but life's been really beautiful as of late and i'm thankful.  i don't know how to do a return post after so long, so how bout a good old fashion thankful list, because i've been given much.

thankful...
for my coworkers.  always and constantly thankful for them.  they're all so beautiful and so caring and they feel like my teammates and we laugh and share life together and hang out sometimes and i wonder how i'll ever leave this job simply because of them.
for holland kabat.  coming to town tomorrow just to be with lil ole me and wow.  i just have a ridiculous amount of love in my heart for that woman!
for missing cassie.  i keep thinkin about her and i think it's good to miss someone.
for all of the sweetest sweetest celebrations ahead this month!  i've always been a real big fan of september!
for a sweet and kind man i am excited to learn more about!
for coral rank.  i told her this, but i'll repeat it here...  being with her briefly at holland and isaac's engagement made me think, "oh, there you are" like we never left and she had just gone to the bathroom or something instead of months and months away.  man, did i take it for granted the years all of my best friends and i lived in the same city!  ugh!  i can't imagine that now.  was that really real or a dream? ha.
for alyssa.  we got apps and drinkies up the road from our place last night and then watched a movie together and i'm so thankful to have a roommate and a friend all in one.  and she left me a little note this morning too and i'm like what?  are you real? haha.
for nighttime prayers when i can't sleep, settling my soul and reminding me whose i am and where he is... right with me.  i love him so.  especially because right now in my Bible reading plan, i'm in the gospels where Jesus just died and it's hard to read.  hard to believe he love(d/s) us that much.

i think there's quite a bit more but my lunch break's almost over ha!  i actually have something more specific in mind that i want to write/process but another time!
love you guys.  thankful you want to know what i have to say.  promise i won't leave such a big gap next time ha!

if podcasts are your thing like they're my thing, please please listen to a teaching by john mark comer (my absolute favorite teacher) called "Jesus on objectification and oppression."  in the podcast app if you type in "bridgetown church" you'll find it.  i think that teaching is so important and so thought-provoking.

i sometimes like to look at old blog posts like old journals to see the things i was thinking/feeling and reflect, and back in 2014 i thanked isaac and holland for helping me figure out what song was stuck in my head (i remember that too, i was in the caf and i saw them and hummed it to them because it was bugging me that i couldn't figure out what song it was and they helped me figure out that it was jeff pianki.  ha!) but they weren't even dating then and here we are, august 2017 and they're engaged.  i want to cry, that's so beautiful to me!

if i'm honest, sometimes it's hard to look at my old blog posts because i miss some of those days/seasons of life so much.  i also sometimes think i was a cooler, wiser person back then with a sweeter heart.  i hope that's not the case.  i hope i'm not cold and cynical and hard now.  i don't think i am, maybe i just don't tie harder thoughts up with a nice bow anymore.

it's crazy to me that i'm still figuring out what living life is.  not that i thought i'd have it down by now, but maybe i thought i would've.

​is anyone else a major nighttime feeler?  what i mean by that is, you get extra sentimental and aware of existence and you need sleeping at last and a night drive with the windows down and you just feel everything deeply?  just wondering.  ha.

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