the rap/hip hop group, beautiful eulogy, has always meant a lot to me, since sophomore year of college when i first discovered them. their music has been an important part of my relationship with God in the past and now they released a new album. just now i've had it playing in my kitchen and couldn't write anything or do anything really because i'm so moved by the lyrics.. i want to weep or something. every song is so shockingly stunning to me, i'm not quite sure what to do with it short of tattooing the lyrics on my body. i'm telling you here because you need to hear it. i'd give you a song to start with, but i honestly can't. the album is called "worthy" and now you know. you know what they say: the more you know, the more you kohl's.
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seeing miss nicole foster rasmussen tonight for a little ramen and conversation (:
tomorrow being friday. dave on our family text messages! a duluth adventure with the three biggest divas to see the fourth biggest diva. (just kidding.. none of them are actually divas. i just think it's funny. especially because my mom's like the opposite of a diva.) the dory halloween costume i made and how much i look like an idiot when i wear it HA! it actually makes me laugh a lot. ..not a nurse or a cat.. just a 24-year-old in a dory costume, folks.. nothin to see here.. (; brian telling me beautiful eulogy has a NEW ALBUM! this frozen strawberry yogurt i'm eating right now #lunchbreakkkk getting to know a cool new person! so fun! anna burggraff's run & huge hug when she saw me yesterday at church. made my whole week, i think! just kind of being an imperfect noob. humbles me and makes me not take life so seriously. all the wedding things to come for the rugrats! (dave & paige, obviously) i don't know, i'm surprising myself, but i'm actually kind of okay with it being cloudy today. i don't know why. those are it off the top of my head.. all is gift. Jesus has given us much.
 this morning i packed up my car with decorations and little games and took myself to menomonie where the most beautiful women and i gathered to celebrate our dearest holland, the loveliest soon-to-be bride there ever was. she's so easy to love! all week as i was preparing for today i just kept thinking how much of an honor it is to lavish someone i care so deeply about.. someone like holland, who is humble and kind and selfless and deserves a million of these parties.  okay so not to toot my own horn, but i was really proud of myself for figuring out how to make a balloon garland. isn't it satisfying to make something you think is beautiful with your own two hands?? alyssa (my roomie) and i are having some people over for games tomorrow and i may or may not have considered making a balloon garland for us because i'm obsessed and think they're so pretty! but i refrained, because it's not really a balloon-garland occasion haha.  i love these two dearly.   mary led part of the devotional and it was brief but incredibly wise, and honestly just really beautiful. she quoted, "what if the point of marriage isn't to make us happy but to make us holy?" and talked about how marriage is its own opportunity for us to become more like Jesus.  becca also shared (side note: doesn't she look so beautiful in this picture??) about how marriage is a unique privilege to be able to love your husband as God's son and like no one else can or has. i'm really glad they both shared what they did. because isn't that the point of all of this living.. the growing more like our sweet Jesus?
i learn about God a lot through people. especially people like these two.  name something lovelier than becca watering her many little green buddies on window sills on a rainy fall day. i'll wait.  and there it is! definitely not as many pictures with holl as i would've liked (sometimes i just forget! becca got a couple of the two of us though, phew!) but a most beautiful day nonetheless. we love the bride so much! but honestly, who doesn't?!
just popping in again.
we had Bible study tonight and i was reminded why Bible study is so important. because of how i feel right now. at this moment in our world, the air around us all is pretty thick with sorrow and grief and confusion and i'm sadly guessing it'll only get worse and the despair will only grow. i feel it's never been more necessary to remind myself of beauty, of what is true, of what is right and good and trustworthy and to do it with people who are also quietly striving in their day-to-day, co-laborers of the gospel and of Christ's redemption in our workplaces, our homes, our friendships, our families. of this big and grand and glorious thing we are apart of that unites us into a family of those living for something, someone, bigger than ourselves. striving for wholeness and goodness and the hope Christ offers to abound. it feels big, purposeful.. like an honor. i forget where, but in the Bible paul says we ought to live "worthy of the gospel." and what an honor! i can't believe i get to be apart of something so beautiful. so many other humans right next to me in so many cities doing so many things, quietly working for Jesus too gives me a tremendous amount of hope. this thing is beautiful. i sometimes feel burdened by what everyone else might think of me because of what i believe and the way that i live. i know i shouldn't, but i do, and i really hate being misunderstood or disliked.. by the possible perceptions of me and if people think i'm you-fill-in-the-blank of every Christian stereotype (we hate people who disagree with us, we all voted for trump, we hate people who are gay, we're intolerant, we're sexist, we believe everyone's going to hell, we're closed-minded). it's just really refreshing to be in a room full of people who share the same love for Jesus, who can process verses that are difficult to read, talk about things we don't understand and even be a safe place to agree on some verses that are suuuper counter-cultural. i don't know. just processing my gratitude for Bible study. feeling refreshed. |
"aslan, aslan. dear aslan,” sobbed lucy. “at last.”
c.s. lewis 
B L O G A R C H I V E
May 2020
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