breathe in, then out. in, then out. (say these things out loud quietly and slowly to yourself):
...i am loved. to the core of my being, the depths of my soul, i am loved. there is nowhere i can hide or run from the love of my Maker. He loves me and He likes me.
...i am known. i am understood. He gets me, He knows how i think and what upsets me and what makes me laugh and what makes me feel crazy loved.
...i am a created human being, and as such i need sleep and food and rest and friendships. there are limits to what i can do and that is okay and good. i am not the Savior and the world is not in my hands.
...i am protected. the loving eye of the LORD is on me when i sleep and when i wake. when i awake i am still with Him.
...i am forgiven. the price for my sin was paid, and when i ask God for forgiveness He is faithful to forgive me and i can let it go.
...i am taken care of. He knows what i need and i can trust Him. He made my heart and covered me with skin and bones and knows better what i need than i do. i am His child. He loves me.
now picture yourself in God's hand. take off that heavy backpack of loneliness and not-good-enough and i-screwed-up and how-am-i-going-to-pay-for-this, and set it next to you, in God's hand. leave it there. now it's just you. safe in the hand of the kindest, most honorable, upright, crazy safe King.
"but i'm not good enough."
"but did you see that really crappy thing i did."
"but i lied today."
"but i really let you down, God."
"but what if it doesn't work and what if i have to..."
"but i've really been awful at spending time with you, don't even look at me."
i think He'd tell you, "let me love you, (insert your name here). let me wash you and make you clean. (beautiful imagery of this HERE, as told by the wonderful, clive staples lewis!)...let me be God."
no more crust, no more scales, or fear, or anxiety, or shame.
tomorrow will be new.