we had Bible study tonight and i was reminded why Bible study is so important. because of how i feel right now. at this moment in our world, the air around us all is pretty thick with sorrow and grief and confusion and i'm sadly guessing it'll only get worse and the despair will only grow. i feel it's never been more necessary to remind myself of beauty, of what is true, of what is right and good and trustworthy and to do it with people who are also quietly striving in their day-to-day, co-laborers of the gospel and of Christ's redemption in our workplaces, our homes, our friendships, our families. of this big and grand and glorious thing we are apart of that unites us into a family of those living for something, someone, bigger than ourselves. striving for wholeness and goodness and the hope Christ offers to abound. it feels big, purposeful.. like an honor. i forget where, but in the Bible paul says we ought to live "worthy of the gospel." and what an honor! i can't believe i get to be apart of something so beautiful. so many other humans right next to me in so many cities doing so many things, quietly working for Jesus too gives me a tremendous amount of hope. this thing is beautiful.
i sometimes feel burdened by what everyone else might think of me because of what i believe and the way that i live. i know i shouldn't, but i do, and i really hate being misunderstood or disliked.. by the possible perceptions of me and if people think i'm you-fill-in-the-blank of every Christian stereotype (we hate people who disagree with us, we all voted for trump, we hate people who are gay, we're intolerant, we're sexist, we believe everyone's going to hell, we're closed-minded). it's just really refreshing to be in a room full of people who share the same love for Jesus, who can process verses that are difficult to read, talk about things we don't understand and even be a safe place to agree on some verses that are suuuper counter-cultural. i don't know. just processing my gratitude for Bible study. feeling refreshed.