one of the people i work with lives in an assisted living facility. we sometimes like to just walk around the building, and today i saw the sun setting through the windows and i tucked away the sight in my heart (like how mary, the mother of Jesus, 'stored up things in her heart'...luke 2:19 :)). the way that sun made me feel was nothing new to me, but it just occurred to me that of all the things most precious to me in the world, the way that sun looked and always makes me feel is up there. i also wanted to hold on to the way an elderly gentleman was also staring at the sun, in his spot on a chair by himself. my kinda man. ;)
today i wondered and thought about why God said "it is not good for man to be alone" (gen. 2:8) when adam had God and all was still in perfect shalom in the world. i mean, probably for the sake of community and because God loves women and wanted to create women, but adam had community, with the LORD, already. he wasn't alone, right? why did God think he was? i don't know if i'm making any sense. it sounded better in my head.
another person i work with had something put in his heart a long time ago to help it. that's about as technological as i can get with it haha, but it makes his heart super noisy when it beats and when you're quiet, you can hear it. i like it. it reminds me that my heart's beating, too. funny how i forget about that super essential organ and how it never ever stops beating.
my pastor's been talking a lot about returning to the LORD lately, with it being the season of lent. the past two sundays he's teared up while talking about how we forget our first love, and how God says "i remember concerning you, (<that's where he gets choked up) the devotion of your youth" (jeremiah 2:2). i love so much that he's so moved. it really means a lot to me.
he's been talking a lot about how in order to rise from death with Christ, the dying part becomes necessary, and coming to life in the kingdom of God almost always involves dying in some way (the practice of lent is an example of this). at easter, we often celebrate Jesus' dying like he did so we don't have to, but actually it was much more. it was an invitation for us to participate in His death with Him so we can join His life. i'd never thought about it like that before. i'm so grateful for these thoughts.
so far, i will be attending four weddings this summer. this makes me unbelievably excited.
two really important people to me were born on this day. becca and aunt wendy. my favorite thing is to celebrate life. especially the life in humans who have so shaped me like they have.
sidney and i drove separately to grandma's tonight. that's the first time the two of us drove ourselves separately to anything and also left to go to separate places. that's weird. we're like grown-ups now, huh.
i'm such a sucker for "unforgettable" by nat king cole.
it's cool to see what i think are Godly practices being implemented in my workplace without anyone really thinking of them that way. like having healthy boundaries with people and taking care of yourself and doing "life-giving" things (not calling them that) to recharge... during the meeting i had today i wanted to cough and say "ahem, sabbath, ahem." ;)
oh, there's a lot of other things i thought about today. i thought a lot of things. but i'm tired and i'll just be done for now.
Jesus, You are Lord. and Your goodness is so undeserved.
looooook at iiiiitttt! just takin a lil nap! (i'm saying all of this in a certain voice holland uses when something's cute in my head. because i miss her. always)