there's somethin wonderful about eating this potato. haha! but it makes me think about the dirt it came from. and the sour cream makes me think about the cow it came from, and the onions i'm picturing wet with rain in a field somewhere. it's just simple and how i want my whole life to feel. i also have banana bread in the oven so i'm just thinking a mess of thoughts about simplicity and warmth and being human... you know, like you do when you make banana bread (; i'm also missing ariel and cassie a whole lot right now. different people come to my mind at different times and on different days, but right now it's those two on my mind. and how i wish i was across from them at racy's, learning about life as only they each can teach. but i hope you know, reader, i probably think about you too at different points during the day! if you're one of my dear friends from EC, most definitely you're on my mind at some point during the week! i miss my buddies over there so much. forever #childrenofthechippewa. this transition time leaves me longing quite a lot for close friendships again, not just over phone. but close friendships take time and grace is here with the faces that make up my days here, now. i guess i'm trying to figure out what community is away from intervarsity and school.
you guys, life right now is so weird. and i think multiple times every day "i don't know what i'm doing i don't know what i'm doing I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M DOINNNNNNGGGGGG!" there's a few things i think i could share about life right now and what's going on in my head and heart, but actually, for now, i'm just not going to. just because i've been thinking a lot about sharing things and how i've been in the habit of being an open book to every person, even people i'm not super close to, and on every social media platform... which i don't think is bad, but i've felt convicted about keeping some things special or sacred- for just me and God or me and the person i'm talking with- if that makes sense. things like what i'm learning and thinking and feeling. this is a conviction for me right now, it might not be for you! i'm not making a statement about everyone's sharing habits! i'm just a little too far on the one side, i think, the side of telling myself "document this! share this! i'm learning this, so blog it!" for just about everything and so i'm trying to pull back a bit from that and reassess things. but i will still be blogging! ya'll know i love it (: i'll just be leaving some things out that i otherwise might be quick to share! i don't know if i'm making any sense to you. if not, don't worry about it... you can just think about potatoes and be on your way (:
there might be a thought in here for you to think about with me, too! what things are special and just between you and God? it's kind of a fun thing to think about!
anyway. i'm all over the place with this post. making my titling decision even more ideal (:
p.s. still listening to the claire de lune. i repeated it that many times! oh, alexi.
hope you're having a lovely day!